Yes, I have the flu. No I don't know what kind. Yes, I have a fever. No it's not the barfing kind. Yes, I cough and it hurts like getting hit in the chest with a baseball bat. No, I didn't go to the doctor. No, I didn't go to the doctor. Fuck, I didn't go to the doctor.

Now the wife suggests I look for something else to do.

Nice.

One day I'm sick and she's already giving up on me and my dream.

Now which is worse - my stupid insensitive wife or being sick?

I'll get back to you on that one.

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I could just separate the nonsense from online communities. But I can't. I can't tell you why when I'm sick that I get extra sensitive. I'm am certainly not wanting to be loved by everyone. The adrenalin makes me feel great when I know someone hates me.

Take - that guy - an 19 year old atheist from Norway or Sweden or one of those Windmill countries hates me. He wants me dead. Sweet. It makes me just glisten with joy knowing my CHRISTIAN images get noticed and some even fav them since he H A T E S all Christians. Yuppers. A living breathing hate-monger who hopes I'll get a bullet in the eye. Oh man, if you coulda seen the look on his face via webcam when he found out I was a miserable Christian. I should've screen printed it for you.

Give me a minute and I'll see if I can come up with some more haters of me. I'm sure there are some - probably lots. And you know what? Like the previous deleted poll stated - they all come from the same general place. Not Mexico. Not Germany. Not Japan. Not Canada. Not Honduras. Not Costa Rica. Not Bulgaria. Not even good old Oregon.

No wait, there is a guy from Vancouver Washington that hates my guts but that's 'cause he thinks I spread some hate to his steroid abusing lust interest - oh wait - that's at some other community.

So you see, drama follows me and starts with me. But then again it starts with you and follows you, too. Welcome to 2010 - I can't wait to see what next falls out of the sky.

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I love my Oblivion Game - it inspires me to Greatness!

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Turns out there's $10K in property damage on my policy in case as stupid idiot borrows a loaner vehicle and smashes it into the back of my truck. So the truck might be covered after all if it's just cosmetic as well as a new windshield and a gas tank. I hope I hope I hope I hope I can get my truck back. I'd pray but that doesn't seem to work for me any more.

I have another adjuster this time on my side and she did seem she'll be able to get me some pain and suffering/loss of work compensation but it might take 4 - 6 months so I'm on my own with that for now. Ah - back to the wheat grind stone.

In other news, I discovered that I can use the whole wheat flour for my good morning bars and will remove another flour from my repertoire of ingredients. Also I'm working on a spice, oat, wheat shortbread cookie. Weird but kinda good. We'll see about that.

The body is okay. Holding up. Now I go in for Pain Management and I drop the lawyer. I'm sure he'll be okay with it. It was pro-bono anyways. Don't know why I would keep him. Unless I want to try and sue the bitch who did all of this - but I doubt it.

Oh and we have a rental car for the next two weeks. That'll make it a nicer drive instead of our Jetta which is falling apart. Hopefully in two weeks we'll have another car in our driveway and the black beast will be sitting in a junk yard getting picked a part with love.

OH HEY! I got invited to be a premier artist at Masters of Muscle right next to my pal, ManofSteel and other great muscle artists. I can't wait to see how that pans out.

Here's to new Muscle and a New Year!

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In the past I exposed people who responded to my journals as a way to expose their talents for people to see anew. Well that was 2009.

For 2010 I will be finding people who watch me as well as those whom I watch to be exposed much like Mongo does with his journal. I think it's fair that when we all start out or if we've been here awhile and we don't get a lot of exposure that it's nice when someone takes the time to give us a boost.

I'm not tooting my own horn, 'cause for me, even though I did reach 100K recently, I feel like I've arrived and well, I'm just sitting over there in the corner of the room, smoking a pipe, sipping on brandy and ready the daily rag. I don't have much reason to try and promote myself, I have enough watchers and enough interest so I'm confident I'll remain semi-interesting as my hair turns gray.

But for you youngin's here who don't seem to bounce about as much, it's only a wishful thought that maybe a little shove or push here and there and perhaps you'll end up center stage for the world to view.

So without further ado, I'll go crawl around my watchers and find some worthy folks to feature in my new journals for 2010.

Cheers!
Moe

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